Lindsey Gay Walker is a British citizen, born and raised in England, UK. She obtained Canadian citizenship when she immigrated with her husband and family to Montreal, Canada in 1989.From the age of 11 years, she trained in musical theatre at the Arts Educational School in London, UK. She performed professionally for a few years and then decided to leave the theatre to teach.
At age 20, she married her Syrian boyfriend and went to live in Damascus, Syria. She later had four children with him. During this time she taught musical theatre to children at the American School of Damascus, dance to adults in the local community, and learned spoken Arabic and French. She also resided in Dubai for many years. Feeling the need to reconnect with herself, she decided to go back to school to study Psychology and in the year 2000 she received a BA[hons] in Psychology with the Open University of England, UK. Her chosen degree also allowed her to become a member of the British Psychological Society.
After getting divorced in 2004, she completed a training called, ‘The Dance of Life’ with German dance therapist, Petra Klein, as well as training in Spontaneous Painting with human relations coach, Cynthia Gonzalez. Upon moving to Vienna, Austria to start a new life, she also trained in Transpersonal Psychology with Dr. Stanislav Grof and his team, certifying as a Holotrpic Breathwork practitioner in 2011. She further certified as a Transformational Life Coach with the International Coaching Academy that same year. Additionally, in 2012, she completed a training in Motivational Speaking with the Authentic Speaker Academy for leadership led by Dov Baron. On moving back to Canada in 2013, settling in Guelph, Ontario, she became certified as an NLP Practitioner with Dr. Steve G. Jones.
Most recently she has combined her love for the performing arts with her love for psychology and life coaching, and joined Sean Michael Paddison as self-development focused music duo called, ‘Unleashed Dreams.’ Together they are creating epic songs to empower people to transform their lives and live their dreams. The lyrics of the songs aim to help people have greater self-awareness, optimism, happiness and peace. Their vision is to be part of the global movement helping to raise human consciousness for a better world.
Additional professional experience:
Creating and directing a musical for special needs children and young adults in an Indian school in Dubai; facilitating spontaneous dance with cancer patients and helping to support the local female workers in an Arabian hospital in the United Arab Emirates; being part of a 3 person team leading a support program for street children from the slums of Bangalore, India; founding and directing her own Self Development Centre called ‘Life Beat’ in Vienna, Austria from 2007‑2010.
Lindsey’s Story — In Her Own Words
Do you remember when you were a kid and thought about what you wanted to be when you grew up? Perhaps you lay awake at night thinking about it or daydreamed during class picturing how everything would be. I dreamt of singing and dancing on the stage, performing something magical where the audience was captivated, the lights were shining brightly, and the excitement was tangible for everyone present. I set out to fulfil that dream by training at a Performing Arts school in England, UK. The same school that Julie Andrews and Sarah Brightman, among other well known artists,had gone to. I worked hard over many years towards my goal but when the opportunity came for me to at last audition for the big shows in London and ‘live the dream’, I found myself facing something I had never expected and no one had ever warned me about.
It all began after I auditioned for a musical in London’s West End, which is similar to New York’s Broadway. It was 1980 and I was just 18, still living at home and quite naive to the world having been in an all girls boarding school most of my life. I had taken quite some time to prepare for the audition but the song I chose had been too low for my voice and I felt I didn’t give my best performance. I left feeling very disappointed after the director said, ‘Thank you — Next!’ Clearly I hadn’t got the job.
A couple of hours after arriving home however, my mother called me excitedly saying that the director of the musical was on the phone. My heart started beating fast. Could I have been mistaken? Did I do better than I thought? Perhaps he’d changed his mind and I’d got the role after all. I quickly took the phone from my mother’s hand and trying to calm my nerves said, ‘’Hello, this is Lindsey’’. In a friendly and relaxed manner the British director said, ‘’Hello Lindsey, I was very impressed with you today and was wondering if you would like to meet up with me this evening?” I immediately said, ‘Oh yes, of course.’ He then added, ‘You know meeting up with me doesn’t guarantee that you’ll get the job’. I said, ‘I understand’, not sure exactly what he meant by that but brushing it aside as I felt so excited that he was actually calling me. He then suggested a place and time to meet up in London that evening, said goodbye and hung up.
When the phone call ended, while I was really excited, I still felt somewhat confused about what he had meant when he’d said meeting him would not guarantee I’d get the job. I started to wonder why he wanted to meet up with me and why he didn’t just speak to me about the job on the phone. I then pushed those thoughts away, just as I did my mother’s questions about the phone call, and assured myself that this might be my big chance to be in a West End show and my little girl dream coming true.
I wanted to look my very best and was happy that it was a warm summer evening as I could wear my favourite yellow dress with white open toed shoes. I curled my long hair to look just right, and put on a little make-up. While I felt nervous at how the evening would go, I also felt really happy and set of excitedly for the train into central London.
He must have been in his late 40s, was casually dressed in a dark jacket, white shirt and jeans. When he met me at the train station he looked me up and down and said, ‘You look really beautiful’. He then went onto say, ‘My car broke down so we’re going to the hotel in a taxi’.
As we got into the taxi a huge wave of uneasiness flooded my whole body and I felt my intuition suddenly scream at me, ’Get out of here – This isn’t about getting the job, he is taking you to a hotel because he’s planning to have sex with you!’. Trying to think quickly how I could get away I acted as if I didn’t know his intentions and quickly said, ‘Oh my fiancé’s car broke down the other day too’. With a surprised look on his face he then said, ‘Fiancé? – and what does he think about you coming out with me tonight?’ I said, ‘ Oh he knows we’re only going to talk about the job’. ‘Is that what you think?’ he answered. I said, ‘Of course’. His previous smile left his face and with a sigh he told the taxi driver to turn around and take us back to the train station, where I was promptly dropped off and told to get safely home. No explanation was given and I didn’t ask for one. I was just relieved to get out of that taxi. Of course I never heard from him again, and I didn’t get the job. I didn’t tell anyone about it until years later.
So often we keep unsettling events locked up in the corners of our mind, sometimes even forgetting about them, until something happens that pushes them back to consciousness for healing. For me that wasn’t until many years later. Perhaps you can relate to what I’m saying.
While it wasn’t with every case, exploitation of young women entering the theatre happened often. It happened to me again in a different context, and I heard other girls talking about it while waiting for an audition. I soon lost faith in my little girl dream, the dream that I’d dreamt of for as long as I could remember, and after just two years in the business I decided to leave the theatre and marry my boyfriend who was the one man I felt truly honoured and respected me. As he was Syrian and we were going to live in the Middle East, getting married felt the right thing to do. I decided to teach singing and dancing in an after school program at the American School of Damascus. Some of those children became my bridesmaids walking behind me in the Church and dancing on the grand outdoor stage of the Sheraton Hotel at the reception. Being married at 20 and living far from home was a whole new life for me.
When two beautiful daughters came along, while I loved being a mom, I missed the performing arts and felt I was loosing myself especially as my husband didn’t share that same love for the arts as I did. I used to sing my children to sleep and my mother-in-law always said that she loved my voice and I should record it but in my mind that dream was over. My husband encouraged me to go back to school but that was a scary thought as I had struggled with dyslexia and failed miserably with academics at school. As I sank into a depression my husband kept encouraging me saying anyone who could learn to speak Arabic in one year with no lessons was clearly intelligent. So I plucked up the courage and decided to give going back to school a try. Over a period of seven years of hard work, with a few stops and starts as I also gave birth to two sons, I eventually reached the peak of my Mount Everest and got a BA Honours in Psychology. Even though it was different to dancing and singing, I felt I had found myself again.
Clearly we all have earth angels on our path, even if we don’t always recognize them as such. Having someone believe in you and offer words of encouragement can often be that small push you need to take flight. I will always be grateful to my husband during that time for believing in me and giving me that well needed ‘push’.
After completing my degree I became more interested in spirituality and felt a strong spiritual calling to connect more this this core part of myself. Unfortunately, for reasons that are personal to him, my husband rejected anything to do with spirituality which meant that we couldn’t connect on this level. We started to walk separate paths and while I loved my husband very much, over the years we grew apart. After 25yrs together and four amazing children he asked me for a divorce. It was another re-birth and with that a heart wrenching time for the whole family as we adapted to our new lives.
During the next decade I moved to live in Vienna, Austria with my two teenage boys while my daughters studied overseas at university. I continued my education in psychology and also trained to be a life coach. Part of that training involved me being coached, and during one of the coaching sessions I was asked if I had fully lived my dreams. I suddenly found myself in floods of tears remembering my long forgotten dream of being on the stage, a dream that felt so far away, a dream that now felt way too late to achieve, a dream that clearly still resonated in my heart and soul.
That played a major part in me reconnecting to my dream and to fully understanding why I had abandoned it. Through therapy I remembered how I’d been inappropriately touched by a piano teacher at the age of six and realized that the inappropriate behaviour from authority figures in the theatre when I was 18 had clearly triggered that wound. I went on a deep inner journey over a good many years doing all kinds of therapeutic work to heal. It was a time of greater self awareness, reclaiming my personal power, and clearing the way for my authentic core self to really come forth.
While I had to face that I was now 50 and had no training in the performing arts since I was 18, I also realized that I had developed other skills, other parts of myself over the years that had brought me a wealth of experience and knowledge. I saw that while my dream might not look the same, a newer version that brought in all my gifts might actually be better and satisfy me more.
Maybe you too have a long forgotten dream that still resonates in your heart. If so, perhaps sharing my story will awaken a part of you that is still calling to be expressed and lived.
During the time I lived in Vienna, I saw the film ‘The Secret’ and decided to do a morning and night visualization about what I wished for to activate The Law of Attraction. Based on its teachings, I knew that if I really wanted to make my vision a reality, I would have to see it and feel it as real. I put on headphones to be able to really enter into the moment and played Katy Perry’s song ‘Firework’ singing full out with her as I visualized my dream. I did this visualization three times a day, much to the amusement of my teenage sons who clearly thought their mum was loosing it! I put out to the universe my wish to be on stage again, this time doing a combination of singing and motivational speaking to inspire people to reconnect to their own dreams, just as I was setting out to do. I also visualized being in a new relationship where we both shared a love for the performing arts as well as personal development and saw us working together.
I started to sing again with a very dear Austrian friend who was a talented guitar player. We sang together in my apartment along with another friend of his. Singing was my happy time and I was so very grateful for his support and the beautiful friendship that we shared. I started to write songs about my life journey and he helped me pull them together and we recorded one of them. I wasn’t sure how the dream in my mind would come to reality or how I’d later meet the man I was visualizing but I trusted that when the time was right it would happen.
When my youngest son finished high school in Vienna, I moved to Toronto, Canada as he was to attend university there, and two of my other children also lived there. One month before I moved, I joined an online singer-songwriter Meetup group based in Toronto so I could meet people when I arrived. The head of the Meetup welcomed me online. His is name was Sean Michael Paddison. The day after I arrived to live in Toronto, Canada, we met up and I handed him my iPod with the first song I had recorded on it for him to listen to. He loved the sound of my voice and we both felt a strong spiritual connection. After meeting a couple more times we started dating.
I truly believe that focusing on what I wanted brought us together and that the Law of Attraction really does work. However, I have also learned that the vision we hold in our mind don’t always fall in line with how we wish it to be. That would be far too simplistic. Life is always calling us to grow, to heal from old wounds and stay connected to our authentic path. When we are able to recognize that everything that comes on our path is for a reason, and that our deepest spiritual self is always supporting us in realizing our dreams, then we can surrender the ‘how’ and learn to trust the spiritual choreography that guides us forward. This is something that I continue to work on – trusting the process!
Initially I thought I was to help people like myself who had gone through divorce but after Sean unexpectedly had a stroke due to an undefined blood condition, I realized that my deepest calling was to create songs with him.
Lindsey in vocal boothToday Sean and I are working together as a self-development focused music duo and call ourselves ‘Unleashed Dreams’. He is a seasoned music producer and since 2015 we have been creating epic songs to empower people to transform their lives and live their dreams. It is our wish that the lyrics of the songs help people have greater self-awareness, optimism, happiness and peace. Our vision is to be part of the global movement that is helping to raise human consciousness for a better world.
If you resonate with our vision and music then I’d like to invite you to join us in sharing this sacred space together. While we may not know each other or ever meet, on a spiritual level I trust our connection is ‘meant to be’, whether it be for a short while or a lifetime.
I would like to leave you with two quotes by Rumi that continue to support me on my path and hopefully will do the same for you –
‘The wound is the place where the Light enters you’.
‘Let yourself be silently drawn by the strange pull of what you really love. It will not lead you astray’.
Love and blessings to you on your life journey,